Something men just don't understand
I LOVE to shop!! I love finding good deals and occasionally splurging on an impulse buy I just can't live without. Every now and then I've had one of those days though when nothing fits or I just can't seem to find what I'm looking for ... and recently I experienced one of those days with my new post-pregnancy body. You can probably tell where this is going ...
Recently, I met up with my friend Liz @TwoMaidsAMilking and her girlfriends to shop for a bridesmaid dress for her upcoming nuptials this winter. I love weddings and it's quite an honor to be a part of someone's special day. And even better ... Liz let us pick out whatever dress we wanted, what a great bride!
So as I begin to try on some dresses that normally would fit just fine, I noticed I wasn't able to get the zipper up on one after another after another after another blasted dress. And nothing was looking like anything I would EVER want to wear in or at a wedding.
Thoughout my life I've basically been the same size, my weight has never fluctuated much at all, until now. I wanted to walk out of the dressing room and strut my stuff and look fabulous ... but I just wasn't feeling that confidence I once had. It was a difficult pill to swallow. The girls noticed my frustration and said "Meggie, you just had a baby a month ago!"
Yes, yes I know but it still didn't sit right with me. In the back of my mind, I was totally that girl thinking I'll just work out like crazy and lose the extra weight by the wedding ... I wanted to order that size I've always been my whole life, not the scary number the consultant wrote down for me!
I did finally end up finding a dress that was flattering. (I think anyways ... I still couldn't get the zipper up the stupid thing!)
So even though I had a great time with Liz and the other bridesmaids, I left with an uneasy feeling of a body that had changed and a confidence level that had dropped. Don't get me wrong, I'd do it all over again and be even 20 pounds heavier just to have my little girl in my life. She is worth it totally!
As I drove home from the big day ... I called Big D and told him about the experience. And although he was "understanding" on the phone, he really doesn't understand, because men don't have to deal with this issue. Men aren't judged for their "figure" or a number on the scale or how good they look in a pair of dress pants. They are lucky in that way.
I'm working on making peace with my new body and I'm anxious to start a workout routine once the doctor gives me the go ahead.
But ladies ... being fabulous and sexy isn't defined by the size dress you wear, it's about being confident in your own skin and loving yourself just the way you are! Words I've lived by and am working on reminding myself of thesedays.