What I Don't Want to Say Out Loud
I have been reluctant to share this post, mostly because I feel like once I publish this it will become some sort of permanent decision that I can't retract.
But it's not and I'm pretty sure I'm being overly dramatic.
You may remember last fall, when Big D and I purchased our dream farm. It really was a dream come true for us - though I'm not sure Big D would always see it that way. Despite the everyday hardships of owning and operating a small family farm business, I'm VERY proud of him and how hard he has worked to provide us the opportunity to buy our very first farm.
In my mind, I always believed that we would move to and live on our new farm. I mean, the house and the property have SO MUCH POTENTIAL.
But we agreed to wait about a year to get started on the renovations. No hurry, really.
Well guess what, we are in the process of renovating the house and cleaning up the farm, but NOT because we're moving there. We're renovating the house to rent it out, which when I say that out loud, still bothers me. But when Big D asks me, "Why, do you want to live there?" I still say "no" and here's why.
Basically, in the process of figuring out what to do, I made a Pros and Cons List (my go-to for making any kind of big decision!) of moving to the new farm or moving to (and renovating) my in-laws large farmhouse, staying in our current house and expanding or building a new house, altogether.
What it came down to is that it wouldn't be in our best interest to move to the new farm ...
- THE NUMBER ONE REASON - It's 35 minutes from my in-laws; currently we live next door to them and it has been a lifesaver for me on multiple occasions for multiple reasons!
- I love the location and promixity to the city where we live now, I'm not sure I want to live somewhere where it takes me 50 minutes to get to a Meijer or Target. And if I were ever to get a new job, my commute to Indianapolis would be outrageous, compared to about 20-30 minutes right now. Yes, we would in be a great school district for RayRay and VERY close to my current job, but maybe I won't work at my current job for the rest of my life. Pros and cons, pros and cons!!
- I really love our little house and it's perfect for us right now. We did a major renovation on the house when we moved in 2008, though it's still a work in progress. It's been in Big D's family for nearly a century and I should mention that we live rent free, for now. Hard to beat that!
A girl can dream and I'm really good at dreaming and making plans!
Though things always EVOLVE differently then how I picture them.
"Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand." - Proverbs 19:21